flavour

If there was a doctor who could scan my emotional and spiritual needs, he would have prescribed Flavour Conference as just the medicine I needed. God has been preparing me for this night for a few weeks now without me even being aware of it. Gently breaking my heart before the conference so that through that pain I would open up a part of me that was untouched before. Yet, even though He broke it, it could not have been in a sweeter way....it was just enough to let it become open, but also enough to bear. To be honest when people say Christ is close to the brokenhearted it sometimes terrifies me. But, as I am standing here, in the middle of the hardship, it seems as though I have a deeper understanding of His peace than from any of my past moments. My heart is broken, but while it was open and painful He crept into encompass the areas that no one else has or even could. Being surrounded by other women who serve the same God, have the same desire to know Him and be known by Him...it is indescribable.

There was an element in the beginning with THE most beautiful dance number I have ever seen. You know how music can affect your soul in a way that mere words can't? I believe the same to be true with dancing. I celebrated and was ministered to in a way I had never experienced before. I couldn't take my eyes off of the grace, confidence, and poise. All the while I could feel God behind each move as if he breathed each step into existence. I weeped all throughout worship and though I was embarrassed at first, the sense of safety around me let me drop my guard down and be vulnerable. I sat next to my friend Claudia from Miami as she held my hand.. That small embrace probably did more than she knew, hah.

Overall, this night has been so needed for me. I can't wait to see what tomorrow holds.

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